I think I am finally realizing, or maybe finally admitting, that in this season of my life, Mondays are most definitely my lazy days. The day where I struggle the most to get out of bed. [Though quite honestly, it is a pretty significant struggle every day. But that’s for another post]. The day where my motivation is somewhat lacking, and where I fight the list that forms in my head. But what I’m remembering, is that I am a girl who needs balance.
Some people thrive on being really busy, who love the go, go, go, and have a hard time letting themselves just sit and relax even if the moment presents itself. I am very much the opposite. I am really good at relaxing. I love settling in on the couch with a good book, a movie, or the latest series on Netflix. But I’ve learned that I don’t just love relaxing, but that I actually need it.
When I worked as a Ministry assistant for a college ministry, as part of Elmbrook church, I loved my job. I loved the people I worked with and the opportunity to have a career focused on the Lord day in and day out. But what I didn’t realize at first, was that even in a job in the church you can get burnt out really really easily. In college ministry, my job was not like other professions. Most of my working hours were at odd times of the day, especially in the evenings when students were free from school, and often on weekends for events, or retreats. So when my week quickly filled up with something every week night, I started to get burnt out. Going going going for weeks on end, I got overdone… unless I had at least one day where I could sit with nothing on the docket begging for my attention- a day where I could simply relax.
In this world, sitting and allowing time to relax is often seen as weakness. As if not having every day filled to the max is a bad use of time. It was really hard for me to admit to my boss, that I needed to re-work my schedule so I could have at least one night of the week where I got to simply “be.” But as I discovered more and more how extremely important that day was in order for me to function at the best of my ability and for me to really pour my heart into what I was doing, I began to fight more for it.
I now know that I crave balance in a world of busyness, and that I really do need those days. So when it comes down to it, my Mondays are much more than my lazy days- they have organically become my breathe and recover day. That one day that I need oh so badly in order to function to the fullest of my ability throughout the rest of the week.
Now you know what I’m up to for the rest of the day! ;)
I know that not everyone is in the season that I am in, with the ability to choose my day of rest, but my prayer is that whatever your week looks like, that you might be able to make time to simply be. And that through those moments you feel the peace of God refreshing you, equipping you for whatever the rest of your days hold.
[Are you good at resting? I’d love to hear if there are any other “needing rest to function” sort of people out there.]