A couple weeks ago, I sifted through the archives of my blog. I was in the process of creating a new page where readers could find my posts about anxiety in one centralized location, and I got lost in a rabbit hole. Digging into stories from my early days as a blogger, and realizing how much heart I’ve poured out onto the page over the years, it was really enlivening. But when I reached the archive page for 2019, I realized how little I’ve shared here in comparison to years past and I thought, what happened? Why have I stopped blogging like I used to?
Looking back, there are three main reasons:
2019 has been a big year of reflection – I’ve been focusing a lot on understanding my anxiety and how to better cope and support my body. This is heavy brainwork; and with that, I’ve found myself having less capacity for output. I’ve missed writing and wished I had more space to do it, but I’ve learned to give myself grace and know that the words will come when they’re ready.
Prioritizing Instagram – As a writer who is working on growing a platform, I’ve focused a lot of energy on connecting with my followers on Instagram. As I’ve been more intentional within that app, I’ve found myself less active on my blog. That’s not on purpose – and it’s not something I want to do moving forward. I so appreciate my readers here within the walls of the good ole .com and know that there’s many of you who aren’t on social media. So please forgive me for neglecting this space and know that I am shifting that starting now.
Laziness – Let’s call a spade a spade – part of it is pure laziness. When the option to write requires me to either pull out my computer and write a blog post or snatch my phone and tap out an Instagram caption, I’ve erred towards the latter. Plain and simple – I’ve been a bit lazy and that’s okay sometimes.
One of the aspects I’ve learned about being a writer over the years is that it comes in waves. Sometimes the thoughts and words are aplenty, and sometimes they are few. Sometimes it’s necessary to write in the blankness, to press through laziness – and other times it’s important to let go, give grace, and trust that the words will come another day.
So that’s what I did – I settled in to a season of rest, accepted the status of less output, and mini-blogged over on Instagram when my heart needed emptying through words.
With that said, here are some pieces of my heart that I shared over on Instagram, in case you may have missed them. Tap the photo to head to read the full caption.
I’m excited because I feel myself reaching the edge of a fog. My head is full of words to write, articles to share, and a series in the making. My fingertips are eager to be unleashed on the keyboard.
Here are a few things I’m currently working on:
Inching my way back towards semi-regular blogging
An article about The Fruit of Being Expectant coming out in the She Leads Daily magazine in September
A brand new series about finding peace amidst anxiety – I am super excited about this one and cannot wait to reveal more.
In the meantime, I want to thank you for being a faithful follower of my writing. It means so much to share the journey with you.